I haven't posted in nearly a week. It is complex.

I wrote before about the steroids that they give me with the chemo infusion. They are really starting to cause problems. They keep me awake Thursday night, make Friday miserable and then Saturday I thought I was okay but I still feel some effects come Monday. This week things got a new twist.

Nutri-Nazi is really having problems with adjusting to my situation. Yesterday it all came crashing down. She called me from her drive home complaining about numbness in her hands and feet and severe stomach cramps. I directed her to the nearest ER where she was admitted. After a night in the hospital and several injections to calm her down she is home. But we have to do something to calm her down after all the stress my cancer has caused. We are planning a spa day or three for her to get away. While I am doing very well, the long term stress has taken a serious toll on her. This is what they are talking about when they say that close relatives are at risk when caring for a cancer patient.

I am not sure how we are going to get this handled. The spa time is a calculated effort, but it may not be enough. I am probably going to have to enact some long term plan to reconstruct her faith in life. That is not going to be easy. Recovery for the care giver is not as plain and simple or as well documented as for the cancer patient. This will take some time.

That is all for now. I need to go make sure she is comfortable, maybe draw her a hot bath and maybe just talk.

Good night.