Today was another beautiful spring day and I took full advantage. I ran errands all day long. I had a lot of things that have slid by that needed to get fixed. The bug light in the back yard, some other tools needed parts, stuff like that. I intentionally kept going all day so I could get tired enough to sleep all night. My schedule has slipped to where I am getting up at 4 or 4:30 in the morning. No matter what the cause of it I have to get it back to some semblance of order, or learn how to start some activity at 4 in the morning.

My acupuncturist seemed to suggest that I might take up meditation. She has this idea that if I concentrate on telling my body to discourage the cancerous cell growth and concentrate on normal dell growth that it will help. I am not entirely in opposition to that idea. I do believe that cancer and mental state are linked in some way. I am not so learned that I can discount any knowledge that may well be based on far more than I know. Since it is coming up summer I suppose it might be an idea to contemplate a little exercise routine in the early morning that might include a few minutes of quiet meditation. I have so many questions about how my life got here, including how the cancer may have come about. Maybe some time spent in self contemplation could help some of it out.

I had a conversation today that certainly put a fine point being old. I dropped by to see an old friend. What seemed like a nice thing to do turned so quickly into a conversation about his medical problems and mine, the medical problems of friends and the passing of other friends. That made me feel old. I know that I am old, but conversations like that should be held to a minimum and infrequently. When I realized the direction of the conversation and how long it had gone on I made an excuse to leave and did so. Right now I think I need to see life the way I saw it the rest of the day, an adventure to be fulfilled with things yet to come. I went back out into the beautiful day and fixed my bug light so I could fry thousands of bothersome insects. In my own selfish way that seemed like a good way to make my life better.