April 16

I had my second chemo session today. It is slightly different than the first in effects. It doesn't hurt as much, but I also didn't push myself afterwards, I came home and relaxed. I am having one hell of a time with blood sugar levels. I am hyperglycemic so my blood sugars run really high, like between 300 and 600+. I am now taking my readings every 2 hours or so and correcting with two kinds of insulin. Yeah, poking myself to draw blood, poking needles in myself to inject insulin. Fun. My world is one of pills all day long and needles, medical procedures and mysterious pains, a body that doesn't work right and highly charged emotional issues I can do nothing about, all wrapped up in highly addictive pain pills. But I am dealing with it. Live some, learn some, adjust. Janice has been a pillar of strength so far. It is wearing on her I can tell but she is getting better about it every day. She has my schedule all done up and has me going to acupuncture couple of days each week. She is all about controlling my diet so we have some conflict there. She also gets a little emotionally charged so I have to sort those episodes out as well.