April 7

The day started good. I had energy and optimism. Sarah gave me some pills she called pancreas enzymes. They seem to work for me to help me digest food more thoroughly. Since starving to death because of a damaged digestive system is a real threat the pills have given me a new lease on life. I am eating anything and everything I can. Problem is that some things are not so pleasant on my digestive track. Today I had a good lunch then a nap. When I woke up Janice made me a fruit drink with strawberries and pineapple. My stomach or pancreas took severe exception to the treat., tasty as it was. I have been in pain since then. Between painkillers and just plain will power I got through dinner and an after dinner treat of two chicken sandwiches. The pain has come back. I just took two more hydrocodon and a part of an over the counter sleeping pill to get me through the night.

Today, because of Sarah's pills I may have actually gained a pound or two. Good thing too because I average about a half pound a day of weight loss. If I had been average weight when this started this would be over by now. Thankfully I was a fat ass and had plenty of weight to lose. I still have more but I would just as soon keep it. Weight is my friend these days. I look forward to talking to my doctor in the hope that for once he will leave me alone about cholesterol and my weight. God damned man is absolutely insane about cholesterol levels. He was bugging me about my weight too but lately he has toned that down a bit. Losing 75 pounds seems to have lessened his enthusiasm for telling me I was morbidly obese or whatever term he used. I told him the damned weight chart was made up by some anorexic bitch with an agenda and I didn't believe in it. I don't guess any of your doctors ever told you lard butts to lose weight did they?